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Jul 142015
 
Hip accident

 

OK- confession time.

I’ve been off work for the last few weeks with a hip and back injury after slipping on a wet patch on the floor of the place we were staying in a few weekends ago up in Byron Bay.

I’m not too sure why I didn’t tell you all before now, but I think I just needed a bit of time to process (and be ok with) what was happening.

Hip accident

I slipped and fell on my left side (the fall itself still makes me feel sick to my stomach, I couldn’t get off the floor for about 20 minutes), badly bruising my left foot and twisting my neck.

But, the lasting injury came a few days later however, when I started getting bad pains in my right hip, much like an old injury I sustained a few years ago in London (you can find out all about this in my new book). Thinking that it would be ok, I took a few days off, but the pain continued.

So, I went to the hospital who told me that all the muscles around my hip were twisted and there was a possible hairline fracture. Yep, exactly the same as 5 years ago, when I went back to work far too quickly and ended up being off for much longer than I anticipated. (Hello type-A!)

I’m walking like an old, old lady and can’t really bend down to pick things up. I’m making myself walk to the local cafe for takeaway chai every day, and then coming straight back home.

I’ve had to take painkillers for a week when I really didn’t want to (you know what I’m like), but I’m definitely on the up. Maybe a sprinkling of traditional medicine works after all?!

In all of this however, I’ve learned even more about injury and recovery to add to my ‘portfolio’ from my time with CFS. I hope that one of these might resonate with you a little…

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5 Things my Recent Accident Taught me about Recovery

1) It takes as long as it takes

Be a participant in your healing, but also accept that pushing it might make the situation worse rather than improving it.

I decided to walk slightly too far the other day, which meant having to a lie on my bed for a while when I got home. Not too terrible, but I really hadn’t listened to my body.

Our body doesn’t work on the same timeframe as our minds. Our minds are constantly wondering why we’re not better yet, but our bodies know that they’re working and healing for our highest good.

2) Feeling bored and frustrated means you need to watch your actions

After a few days I was absolutely ready to jump back into work mentally, but my body had different plans. When I told my husband I was thinking of going back in, he very gently reminded me of my accident a few years ago and what rushing back in did to me then.

When I’m in my floaty, dreamy ‘Aquarius’ brain, my husband is the one who’s realistic, and is more than happy to tell me how it is. Ever the stubborn one, I don’t always like this, but he’s always right (dagnamit!).

3) Listening to your body will tell you everything you need to know

I couldn’t help but draw parallels between all my time off with CFS and recovering after this accident, but it also showed me how much I’d grown as a person, and how much more responsible and accepting I was of my situation. I haven’t been giving myself too much of a hard time or wasting energy on the ‘shoulda woulda coulda’. I’ve accepted that I can’t move any faster than I am at the moment (my body is telling me loud and clear about that).

Click here to read another article about listening to your body’s signals.

4) Others will understand

I very easily slipped back into my old habit that I adopted when I was very ill of feeling like a huge burden on other people, for example- asking my other half to help me unload the dishwasher, when I shouldn’t have been trying to do it in the first place.

Other people understand what it’s like to be injured and sick (they’ve been there too, remember?) and they don’t want to see you make yourself worse. Gratefully receive the help that is extended to you, however unnatural this might be to accept. (Guilty).

5) Stillness is our natural state of mind

I never, ever thought I’d be typing this, but I’ve come to realise that we tend to fill our brains with stuff, well at least I do, as a bit of a distraction sometimes. We want to keep our mind and ego busy, so we give them things to chew on.

When I was first off work, I was driving myself crazy, convincing myself that there were all sorts of things happening at work and they needed me back in asap, but I think this was just my guilt playing out. The old saying, ‘The devil makes work for idle minds’, can definitely be true when we’re sick, but taking real time out and going easy on yourself resets your mind, much like after meditation. I’ve been reminded of this stillness throughout my time off, and will try to come back to this feeling as often as I can.

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The Meaning of Hip Injuries

As I tend to do a lot out of curiosity, I jumped straight into Louise Hay‘s ‘You Can Heal Your Life’ after my accident to see what nuggets of wisdom she had.

ACCIDENTS: Inability to speak up for the self. Rebellion against authority. Belief in violence. 
Affirmation :
 I release in me that created this. I am at Peace. I am worthwhile.

HIP PROBLEMS: Fear of going forward in major decisions.
Affirmation: I am in perfect balance. I move forward in life with ease and with joy at every age.

If I’m totally honest with myself, I have been resisting moving forwards.

I absolutely love writing, but didn’t want to admit to myself that this might be something I’d love to take seriously. I’ve been feeling for a while that I’m not worthy of pursuing writing and the marketplace is totally flooded, but this break has given more the opportunity to really see that I was putting obstacles in my way where there didn’t need to be any.

As much as I love Louise Hay however, sometimes things just are what they are, and I didn’t want to dive into the well of thinking that I was broken and that something deep inside me needed to be fixed. Sometimes we’re ok to go there, but my inner voice told me that I was doing just fine.

I’d love to hear your thoughts and comments below my love- did any of the points in this article resonate with you? What have you learned about recovery?

Lots of love from the sofa, Katie    xxx

* All images taken from Unsplash

  12 Responses to “5 Things my Recent Accident Taught me about Recovery”

  1. Oh,Katie, so sorry to hear about your accident. I don’t know why we are so hard on ourselves when we get sick. I am guilty of this too and get frustrated with myself…knowing I need to be patient and not push myself too hard. It sounds like you are doing well in that department though, wise woman that you are. As far as your feelings about writing…you are so good at it and have so much to share that is valuable to to others. Please know your writing is important and you are gifted and respected. Take care of yourself. xoxo

    • Thank you so much beautiful- you’re an angel. I know, I’m not sure why we’re so hard on ourselves either- I think we’re sometimes led to believe that if you push yourself and say that everything’s ok, you’re perceived to be a strong person and that you can easily brush off everything life throws at you. ‘Tis an interesting one indeed…!

      Hope you’re doing ok my darling- xxx

  2. Sorry to hear about your accident beautiful Katie. Sending you love & light & healing thoughts.
    I can really relate to being frustrated and my mind wanting to do more than my body can. I recently had a bit of a CFS setback. My health had been improving with a daily chakra cleanse meditation and several white light healings and I was getting out to walk my dog just about every day and then one afternoon when we were just about home he was attacked by a dog off the lead, my poor fur babies back leg was ripped open and he had to have surgery and was in a cone for 2 weeks. The shock & the horror of the attack took its toll on me. Then the day my fur baby had his stitches out my beautiful Mum-in-law passed away, that day also would have been my late partner’s 48th birthday. The kids and I had to go to Queensland for the funeral the next week, the grief, & the travel have also taken there toll. So once again I am learning to listen to my body, trying not to feel guilty that I can’t get out every day & learning to just breathe & relax through this time. I’m still in better shape than I was six months ago but frustrated at the set back and wondering how long this will take. I’m sure you can relate.
    Wishing you a thorough recovery Katie!
    Love, light & hugs xoxo

    • Ruthie, sending so, so much love to you my darling- that’s a lot to go through in a short space of time. I really hope your fur baby is recovering well and that you’re taking good care of yourself (although it sounds like you are). I can definitely relate to your frustrations!

      Lots of love, Katie xx

  3. Sorry to hear about your accident. Healing light for you ……. I can relate to so much that you’ve said. I’m learning a lot whilst having to take time out with flu. Re learning that it’s ok to do nothing. To have not “achieved ” anything at the end of the day is not only OK but actually good for me! The world won’t end because I haven’t done anything from my to do list!

    • Exactly Sarah- the world will still go on regardless, something I need to remind myself of away from work! Sending you lots of light and healing energy.

      Love, Katie xx

  4. As you know, things happen for a reason… Take your time and listen to yourself, as you say, it’s the wiser thing you could do, and also what you need. In your case, it might be that jump up to your book. Now you have all the time to finish that, your mind is ready, and your stillness is giving you that opportunity. Yes hips=fear to give another step. Be as brave as you have been to reach the point you are now. Take it as a kinda holidays and practice your own loving, and taking away guilt. This is an opportunity to review if you really have let go off that old pattern. Enjoy your sofa life and the cares of your lovely husband, and let him be “neccesary” for you, I’m sure he feels really good at attending you. That energy will make good to you both. I’m practising that of “doing nothing thing”, or just doing what I feel like without guilt, taking my phisicall and mental weakness as a way to be in a holiday where I set the rules. I’m feeling good at myself and I want to feel I’m feeling better respect my illness. When my overfast mind comes to remind me of my health and laboral situation, I say ho’ponopono words and that anxiety goes, and I feel fresher to go out of myself and see what is really going on…
    Have a nice time and go ahead, always
    Love
    Carmen

    • Thank you beautiful- you speak such wise words, as always. I knew as soon as this happened that the accident had happened for a reason, and I definitely think it’s forcing me to move forward when I otherwise would’ve backed away.

      It sounds like you’re in a really good place at the moment- enjoy your learnings my love.

      Love, Katie xx

  5. So sorry to hear about your accidents Katie. I was nodding throughout your post as it’s like reading about myself. I still feel a bit of a burden sometimes due to not being able to work (though in the next month I will be starting to look for a way to make an income, whether selling my craft or find a part time job). We really shouldn’t be so hard on ourself but I guess as a Type A person, it’s just go go go all the time which makes it hard for us to sit still and just relax :)
    I hope you feel better soon xx

    • You’re exactly right, Randi- sometimes though, admitting that we’re ‘type As’ can help us go a little bit easier on ourselves, if that makes sense?! We can ease off and know that we’re still probably setting quite high standards for ourselves compared to others!

      Best of luck with your job search- a new chapter!

      Love, Katie xx

  6. aww sorry you hurt yourself Katie. you got a wonderful hubby though who loves you to bits :) and will make sure things are OK. he won’t mind helping you cos he loves you to pieces.

    The thing is with you is that you always learn where you went wrong so that’s more helpful than not knowing cos you can make things better. but no one is perfect and we all do things wrong sometimes just got to be easy on yourself, we are all human. imperfect human beings. we got to forgive ourselves abit for that. and we are all the same no one better or worse than anyone else. we all get frightened sometimes and it’s ok to go a little down sometimes, as long as you always get back up :)

    even if there is other stuff out there and people doing different things in their own way, it’s all needed because it has different ways of helping. and your stuff definitely helps. it helps me and I try to pass it on to other people sometimes and they tell me they like what I’ve passed on. just always gotta believe in yourself, like you DO. :) xxx I hope you feel better soon and the pain eases off. you will get there again. lots of hugs katie

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