I’ve written difficult posts before, but I never thought this would be one I would have to write. Writing this post explaining why I’m scrapping my e-course is scary, but it’s one of the most authentic and freeing things I’ve done for a while.
Let me explain…
Ever since I got back from Bali around 2 weeks ago, I’ve had a constant headache and this isn’t like me at all. I used to be the girl who always carried paracetamol in her bag, but over the last fews years, headaches haven’t bothered me at all. So I was puzzled as to why I’d been carrying this one around with me for so long- what was it trying to let me know? After returning from Bali my 2015 ambitions were quite simple- to work on my next mini e-book and finalise the 4 Week Transformation Project, my e-course that I put out for free last year and in 2013. I was super clear on everything and tried to get to work on it. But, there was huge, agonising resistance.
I have to be honest and say that resisting something I’m excited by really isn’t like me at all. Even if I’m not 100% motivated by something or slightly scared, my type-A tendencies usually kick in and save me. But every time my husband asked me about my plans or schedule for the e-course, I would feel incredibly heavy and brush it off with a casual, “Ah, you know- coming along”. He twigged that something was going on, but just presumed that it was a little bit of creative resistance.
I was going through all of the old materials that I’d prepared over the last few years and it all felt so foreign to me. Changing the font and images wasn’t the problem- my approach was all wrong. I heard myself saying, “I might just start over and write everything up all over again…but it’s not enough”.
Then, I got it.
It’s not enough
An e-course to get your head around CFS is not going to cut it. I’m not serving you at all by doing it. I can make all the videos and PDFs I want, but I still wouldn’t be helping you at all. I might be scratching the surface, but it’s not enough.
The truth is, I thought because I was a blogger, I should be creating an e-course. They seem to be so popular, and I’ve completed many of them too, so that would be the natural way to go, right? Not this time.
The name also irked me. ‘The 4 Week Transformation Project’ sounds like a get-fit-quick scheme, which, if you’ve been reading the blog for a while, is not what I’m about. It’s not part of my story and it never has been (this doesn’t mean that I’ve never been tempted by a quick fix, however).
You deserve more than that.
You deserve to hear everything. I’d love to pull up a seat next to you, have a cup of tea and we’ll get into all the ins-and-outs- my experiences, what you’re going through, everything. We’re not talking just coaching- we’re in this for the soul-trembling changes and the ‘hit me over the head’ a-has.
I’m all in for you.
What does this mean?
Firstly, all of the 4 Week Transformation Project materials are now available to download here for free. Weeks 1-4 in all their not-yet polished, crazy-font glory (don’t say I didn’t warn you!)
Secondly (and I can’t really believe I’m typing this)…(gah!)…I’m going to write a book.
Let me type that again. A book.
A full account of my illness with a smattering of tips along the way. This is the only way my soul wants me to communicate what it wants to. I’m excited, but uncomfortable; open, but trying to contract. However, on this occasion, I have no choice.
It’s going to be a book that you can hold in your hand in print, on Kindle, on audio- all forms. I also have a feeling that it’s going to come quickly- this one will not wait, however much I try to hold up the ‘stop’ signs.
To all of you who’ve been waiting for news on the Transformation Project, I’m sorry that it won’t be delivered in the way you want it to be. But, I really believe that this will be bigger and better, and help you create more of a shift in your life. I truly feel that reading my story, one word after the other, will prove more meaningful to you that staring at PDFs and worksheets wondering how the hell to approach it.
The work (our work) is in these pages that are bubbling up inside of me now…and I’m bloody terrified.
The headache? Long gone.
Thank you my loves for joining me on this journey- I cannot wait to serve you through this book.
Lots of love,
Click here to download all of the Transformation Project materials- they’re all yours.